I had my final interview today for that job. It’s at an electronics store, and they want to put me in the video games section, which is pretty awesome. They sent me off to go get a drug test done, but because I have problems with peeing in public spaces, I wasn’t able to get a urine sample. It would have been okay if they’d given me more time, but they told me I could only take three minutes to do it, and if I didn’t do it in that time, I wouldn’t be allowed to take any longer or try again unless I went back to the store and got another form to do the test again. Which sounds pretty shady to me. So I had to go back to the store, and luckily they gave me another form, and told me I need to get it done tomorrow morning so they can have it cleared by the weekend.
So anyway, I’m super anxious about having to go back tomorrow morning. I have trouble peeing in public to begin with, but putting pressure on me with a time limit, not to mention the pressure of this entire job relying on me peeing in a cup, makes it even worse. So I’m super afraid that it’s just going to be a repeat of this afternoon and that I won’t get a job because I’m such a failure that I can’t even pee into a fucking cup. I’m planning to drink a whole bottle of water before bed, then drink another bottle when I get up, in hopes that that’ll make me able to pee when I get there.